Contemplations and Final Decisions

I know it's quite a surprise for me to blog two nights in a row. Today I had a lot of quiet time, down time to think after bringing Jen to the airport. I have been considering for some time now not stopping at my initial goal, but continuing on another 10 pounds or so. I've mentioned it in a prior blog post and mentioned it again last night in my post.

Well, today I thought more about it. I had a pretty quiet day and thought a lot about a lot of things. I have made the decision to go another 15 pounds past what was my "initial" goal. The initial goal, as you may recall was to lose 62.2 pounds on the program. That would have given me a total loss, from my heaviest weight of roughly 87 pounds. With the new goal set, I'll have a total loss of roughly 102 pounds. This doesn't get me back to my high school graduation weight of 119, but I'm thinking it's about as close as my body might let me get.

When I initially started the program and told the doctor what I wanted to do (62.2), he told me I could go further if I wanted to. I said, we'll see....but, now I think about that ALL the time and WANT it. I think that because things are progressing at such a great pace for me that doing another 15 pounds is something I can forsee.

With all that being said, I'm frustrated beyond belief that I don't have anything I truly LOVE to wear this Saturday to my birthday party. My fabulous friends are throwing my 40th birthday party on Saturday night. Yes, another party, but it's the last one for this year! From what I know about the party it's on Saturday night, I need something that I might wear to church. I know that there are 24 of my closest friends and family attending and that there are 8 people spending the night at my house. More importantly, I know that I have absolutely nothing that I want to wear and as I sit here, literally crying about it, it pisses me off. I had a dress I wanted to wear, it doesn't fit. It was a little too tight, and it still is. I bought something to wear yesterday, today, I hate it. It's more of a work outfit than anything else.

Anyway, back to my thoughts on the additional 15 pounds, I've increased my Wii Fit to 55 minutes a day since Monday of this week, an hour a day starting tomorrow and next week doing an hour and 15 minutes. I'm going to do the hour of step, just a continuation of what I've been doing, and then I'm going to add the actual Wii Fit strength training activites to the program. I do some weight work now to tone some muscles, but definitely need to focus on toning everywhere.

Well, enough rambling for me tonight. I think I'm a little bit overwhelmed by the activites of the last couple of weeks. Maybe I should just give it up for the day and go to bed. Part of me is exhausted and the other part of me is ready to do laundry, vacuum and get ready for the company that is coming this weekend. The thoughts are there, but the energy is not!

In closing...

“What we plant in the soil of contemplation, we shall reap in the harvest of action”