....But, I Am....
Yes, that is right...for those of you who have been reading all along, welcome back. It's the new edition of The Journey, Round 2. Although as I logged on to this site to post for the first time in a LONG time, I realize I said I was starting back a year ago...not sure exactly what happened to that!!
Over the past couple of weeks I have given some serious thought to restarting the Garcia program. It took a couple of weeks to admit that I needed to. Then a week or so of playing phone tag to figure out if I could arrange something to fit in my budget. I was surprised to find out through a couple of sources that the office is still using my prior promotion information on their website and in mailings...ahh, those were the days! :)
In speaking with the office we made an arrangement and low and behold...the program officially restarts tomorrow...I've gone to the restart appointment, I have the medication, I got the injection, I donated my Girl Scout Cookies back to the troop without so much as picking them up...the food & gallon of water portion begins at 6:30 when I get up.
Needless to say the fact that I have to even restart makes me sad, but it certainly is not the fault of anyone but myself and my choices. Kind of funny since I just took a class at work on accountability...hmmm, ironic?
I had a great conversation with Dr. Armstrong this afternoon. As he "welcomed me back" I could not help but laugh because "I never wanted to be that person". He reminded me of a few important lessons
1. Surprise, Surprise...I'm human :)
2. At some point in our lives we all fall off the wagon.
It's not the issue of falling off, it's what you do once
you realize you fell off. Do you do something to get
back on or do you wallow in the dirt and feel sorry for
yourself because of it?
Two great points, even though I'm incredibly frustrated with myself. Let's just say February has not been the month that I wanted it to be from start to finish! However I know the rest of 2011 is going to be spectacular!
So, what happened? Well, quite honestly, I thought and as I write that, that was the issue. I thought, I didn't act. I thought I could handle maintenance by myself. I know what to do and what not to do, I know what to eat and what not to eat, I know how much of it to eat and I know I need to exercise. So, you ask, what happened? Knowing and doing are sometimes two different things. This thing we call "life" got in the way and it was easy to get off track. I will say, my exercise routine has never been more on track, but I think ...no, I know...I used that in my head as a thought of, well..I can eat that because I'm going to the gym. It doesn't necessarily work that way for my metabolism I suppose.
So, now what? Well, restart is tomorrow, and the first few days are the worst. Pure protein, no carbs, no fruit, no vegetables, but a lot of protein and A LOT of water. One day at a time, shoot, sometimes even one meal at a time, controlling the decisions I make will let me reach my goal, again. After that, the accountability of maintenance is not an option for me. The maintenance is necessary. I learned that the hard way!
My mom asked me tonight when I told her about the restart what my "goal" was. At this point, I don't have a "number" goal. I know where I was comfortable...it's definitely not where I am now. When I get there, or get close, I think I'll know. Last time I got a lot of push back on having lost what some people thought was "too much". I don't think at this point I want to go quite that far, but again, as it gets closer, I think I'll figure it out. In the meantime....I'm going to work every day to be a better me.
I have an absolutely INCREDIBLE support system in my family, boyfriend and friends and I know with their help and the support and guidance of the staff at Garcia Weight Loss, I will reach and continue to maintain my goal. In the meantime, look for a new blog post weekly as I'll be keeping this updated. It helps me to track what I'm doing on a weekly basis and how "life" affects my journey.
To those of you who play an active, daily role in my life...thank you. Without your love and support I would never be able to do this. Each of you mean so much to me and I thank you for everything that you do for me, each and every day.
"Thinking well is wise; planning well, wiser; doing well, wisest and best of all."
- Persian Proverb
