Two posts in one day!
So, thanks...to all of you who read this, who live this journey with me, day in and day out. Whether you want to be or not, you're in this with me and I appreciate all of your support, your comments and your dedication to keep coming back and reading all this!
A question for you...what do you do to overcome your biggest obstacles??
November 21, 2011
It's been a long time..and I can tell
I have to tell you, there is a part of doing this blog that keeps me "honest", especially to myself.
Tonight I write to you, feeling a little down in the dumps because I had a bad couple of months and have let it linger to no fault of anyone but myself and here I find myself at the holidays, disgusted because I gained outside of my "comfort zone" and while not needing to officially "restart" I need to get my ass back on track. Sorry for that, but it is what it is.
When I lost my job this summer, I joined myself in a pity party. I was stressed and down and unfortunately I'm one of those down in the dumps people who turns to food. "Lucky" for Todd, my better half, that he doesn't. I wish I was strong enough to turn another way when I get to feeling like that.
I hate the fact that I turn to food to find comfort, it's stupid but it is something that I have to make a conscious decision about every day. I haven't been doing that and it's time I remember that this is something that needs to be in the forefront of my mind each and every day. I wish it didn't have to be, but sometimes people have things they just have to learn to deal with, like diabetes or alcoholism or something that forces you to control what you do for a reason.
I don't have "all that much" to get back to where I want to be. I mean, I've started this journey and restarted this journey at much heavier than today, but today THIS is no longer acceptable to me.
I canceled my gym membership, but tomorrow I'll be restarting somewhere else. I had canceled because I was having a hard time finding time to fit that into my new and busier schedule, but I know now that I need to make the time to do the things that work for me. If that means being at the gym at 5:00 a.m., that's what I'm going to do. It's just that simple.
SO here I am, three days before Thanksgiving, my favorite day of the year, and looking forward to making the right choices from here on out.
Wish me luck...once again!
Tonight I write to you, feeling a little down in the dumps because I had a bad couple of months and have let it linger to no fault of anyone but myself and here I find myself at the holidays, disgusted because I gained outside of my "comfort zone" and while not needing to officially "restart" I need to get my ass back on track. Sorry for that, but it is what it is.
When I lost my job this summer, I joined myself in a pity party. I was stressed and down and unfortunately I'm one of those down in the dumps people who turns to food. "Lucky" for Todd, my better half, that he doesn't. I wish I was strong enough to turn another way when I get to feeling like that.
I hate the fact that I turn to food to find comfort, it's stupid but it is something that I have to make a conscious decision about every day. I haven't been doing that and it's time I remember that this is something that needs to be in the forefront of my mind each and every day. I wish it didn't have to be, but sometimes people have things they just have to learn to deal with, like diabetes or alcoholism or something that forces you to control what you do for a reason.
I don't have "all that much" to get back to where I want to be. I mean, I've started this journey and restarted this journey at much heavier than today, but today THIS is no longer acceptable to me.
I canceled my gym membership, but tomorrow I'll be restarting somewhere else. I had canceled because I was having a hard time finding time to fit that into my new and busier schedule, but I know now that I need to make the time to do the things that work for me. If that means being at the gym at 5:00 a.m., that's what I'm going to do. It's just that simple.
SO here I am, three days before Thanksgiving, my favorite day of the year, and looking forward to making the right choices from here on out.
Wish me luck...once again!
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