Sixteen weeks...It's been 112 days since the start of my lifestyle change. One hundred and twelve days of better decision making where food, drink, exercise are concerned and finally, one hundred and twelve days of people noticing a change in me.
I have blogged about this every week for the past month or so, but it's still something in which I struggle daily. I honestly don't know how to 'get over' the comments, compliments and looks. It's just not something I'm used to. I was out on Saturday night, with friends, for the first time in a long time. I saw people that I haven't seen in a long time. Every time someone made a comment, I tried really, really hard not to roll my eyes, say "whatever" and just blow it off. It's hard. I've given this some thought this week to see what really bothers me about it and I think that it's that I feel like I'm still the same person inside. I guess I feel like people think I'm different and I really am still the same person inside. It shouldn't matter what I look like 'outside' and I think that people are putting more emphasis on that, rather than who I really am. I'm so "not" the "skinny girl". I'm much more comfortable being the girl who would do absolutely anything for her friends and her family. The girl who wants nothing more than for the people in her life to be happy and healthy and who loves God, her family and friends more than anything else.
Okay-so enough about that....the reason you all come here is to see what the result of the Monday morning weigh-in is. Yesterday, I really thought it might not be such a great week. I didn't (still) deviate from the program, but I'm still not drinking the water I should be drinking. I made a pact with Kristin (the MA who weighs me every week) that when I saw her next week, I'd have consumed 7-gallons of water by then! I'm going to do that!!
This week, officially, I went over 60 pounds. I lost 1.5 pounds for a total of 60.2 pounds on the program. From the time I started losing weight, I'm actually down 85 pounds...but we're not tracking that here. I've lost 14.5% body fat and I have 17 pounds to get to the 'updated' goal. I guess (it just hit) that means, if I hadn't changed my goal, I'd have 2 pounds to go, and next week, I'd be starting maintenance! Oh well, it is what it is...16 weeks in, no gain to goal so far and 17 pounds to go.
I'm thrilled about the impending start of the maintenance program. I'm happy to think about starting to add things in that make no sense to me why I can't have today. I mean, it's not like I want to add in a Snickers bar (I hate chocolate) or a bag of Doritos (no desire for them), but to not have to pick slivers of carrot off of lettuce when I eat a salad, or to have an extra piece of fruit or two during the day is something I look forward to! I was discussing eating habits and shopping with a friend this week. We discussed how, really, I only shop the perimeter of the grocery store. Only things that are "from the earth", fresh fruits, vegetables, lean meats, seafood and limited dairy products. I absolutely love the food that I get to eat. The other night I made scallops and filet for dinner, with asparagus and sliced tomatoes. Can't get much better than that!
Anyway, all in all it was a great week. I'm looking forward to a few more weeks of losses and then starting maintenance. I know I can do it, I know I can stick with it and I know I'm ready!
In closing, have a fantastic week!!!
You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through. Rosalynn Carter
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